“This suuuuucks!!” she screams, and still shows up.
She smarts at talk of “bravery”, she’s doing whatever works.
She looks for work and looks again.
She plans the holidays and smothers her pain.
She swears and looks the other way.
She laughs and cries – a lot or not.
She loses it and, sad to say –
She’s sleeping with her eyes wide open.
Because she’s prepared to be seen – she’s not pretending –
She’s a badass single mother, and that is worth defending.
This is not what she meant when she said yes,
Not the vision she held,
Not the future she planned to bless.
But the present.
So she’s still
and falling down again.
Because – this will come as no surprise –