Something completely unexpected happened today and I so easily could have missed it. This is how I discovered it.
Tonight, I spent ten minutes in silence reflecting on my day. Only because a friend suggested it.
So I sat there…
And I sat there…
And I sat there… At first I couldn’t think of anything just because I couldn’t think of anything bad.
Then, as I started to systematically go through the different beats of my day I thought, “That was funny.” Then, “That was happy.” Then, “CLASSIC.” Then, “That was amazing.” Then, “That was fascinating.” Then, “That was moving.” Then, “Wow, that was awesome.” And finally, “What a satisfying day!”
What was so unexpected? What would I have missed if I hadn’t sat down to think about it? Today, I was happy.
Just. Really. Happy.
It was a great day.
Despite much cause, I wasn’t worried, I wasn’t fearful, I wasn’t angry, I wasn’t frustrated, and I didn’t lose my temper with my kids (which was about me, not them). I just really enjoyed them.
If I hadn’t been asked to stop and think, I wouldn’t have noticed. I’d have fed the dogs, checked the hamsters, put the kids down, turned the lights off, got myself ready and fallen – unthinking – into bed.
I really surprised myself. How could I not have known? I needed today, but without reflection its particular gift would have floated down the river into the fading light.
I want to change that tomorrow. I want to look back and think. I want to recognize and register all of it.
You know, today? All was right with my world.